I try to enjoy my holidays, but somehow I feel depressed. It is because of the vision, that all three months I will spend in front of my pc and in the same room… Trough the summer it is too hot, or it rains and it is not the perfect weather for long walks. I even think, that those walks would not make me feel better. But it really goes on my nerves the everyday stereotype. I’m so tired… I work only few hours a day, but I do not know how people can stand to work about 8 hours every day. But maybe I just have a too stereotype work… No challenges, no change… I do not have to work every day, I have a monthly limit which I should do. But then I work for our site – I translate some articles and it really sucks out of my many energy… and I translate every day an article.

Also I feel, that I should have more exercise… When I was younger, it was better. We went out, played games, even if we were older we played with smaller children, we chased each other, went on longer walks. Now I am with my boyfriend. We have his and his brother´s flat and we sit together in it. I stare into my pc and he in his own. And when I do not have my pc, we stare at some movie in his pc. And the worst is, that I got use to it.

Somehow I miss the school… We are not every day in the same time at school, I walk into the school and home, and again into the school and than to Jan. But maybe going to school would be not good in such hot weather. Maybe I just still have the end-school crisis :-D I had it last year too, but I think it did not last for so long as now…

Maybe it is so strong, because next year, I hope, that me and Jan will move to our own flat. Im afraid, that I will have such stereotype every day. Of course I will go to the school, and I will cook and I (hope?) will have the same work… I just hope, that Jan will help me and he will not work and play all day long. And of course bicycling. I do not want to find my self looking like my parents. I, as my mum, working and than expected to cook and clean and Jan as my father, sitting around and doing mostly nothing. Of course Jan do not want to have clean flat as my father, but I want to have clean around me, because if I have too much dust in the room, I start to sneeze.